In high school and college I often used poetry and writing as a coping mechanism. I haven’t written much lately and part of that is due to my busy work schedule and personal life. I’ve been meaning to get back in the habit of writing everyday (which is one of the reasons I started this blog), but I haven’t been faithful to my poetry. Anyways…today a co-worker and I were speaking about poetry and creative writing and I thought it would be a good time to do some reminiscing and go through some of my old poems.
I went to my documents and scrolled through documents and documents of poetry. I found one about the beach that I was going to read but my fingers mistyped and brought me to this….
A Lack of Acceptance . . . by Kopper Joi (me!)
A collision of faith and acceptance
hit the canvas like a gunshot to the heart.
A painful, yet not always instant kind of hurt.
Faith rejecting her acceptance,
While the acceptance of you will contradict her faith.
Holding your relationship in a stormy sea of high
tempers with a slight chance of rejection.
Your acceptance of yourself has led you to question
your faith as the fear within your heart rumbles
through your veins and pulsates between
each and every single breath that you take.
Yet with assurance that some will still love you,
you force yourself to change into something,
something that is not what you want
but is forced upon you. With hands joined,
knees bent on the ground and eyes snug within eyelids;
You pray that one day they will love you
but love you for who you are. They will have faith
in our every judgment and they will accept
every move that you make from within your heart.
Regardless of faith, in honor of acceptance.